CamsterTheHamsterXD

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A Poem to My DeviantArt Phase by CamsterTheHamsterXD, literature

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A Poem to My DeviantArt Phase

Oh no... hello? Little lady, wait I take that back Young and brooding person, who is trying to shrink, and afraid to lack a gender How times have changed! And at once remained exactly as they were You will always be sad You have always been sad Memory has never been your strong point But an elephant never forgets a grudge NOT that you're fat, you are probably in the best shape of our lives (TBD) But you will grow! Not as much as you've wanted to, not all at once Not in a timely fashion But much more than he ever will You will be sick for a long time Then you will wake up in almost 10 years, twice validated And breathe clearly You will be in love In a meadow filled with the infinite butterflies you thought had been mercilessly crushed Flitting freely Knowing that others are not yet so lucky Knowing that you were guilty of silence Guilty of thinking a predator could change his stripes As the wind shifted his putrid odor through the grass Learning to scream with all of your lungs

A Pebble by CamsterTheHamsterXD, literature

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A Pebble

I'd say hello again But it's never really left Like a benign poison crawling slowly through my veins Just a trace A pebble, rolling around in the shoes of my mind No longer sharp, nor painful Simply a reminder that there's a pebble Underneath my feet with every step Every thought Perhaps not Every thought But consistent enough that I remember Isn't it strange? How far we go with past in tow And present tugging at our shirts with need So much need All I can do is try to want in kind Before I am swept up in a future tide What harm can it do to dream? What harm it can do to dream. I have so far to go To achieve any semblance of a fancy My

Like by CamsterTheHamsterXD, literature

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Like

You are like A breath of fresh air To me When I've spent so long gasping Suffocating Choking down the toxic breeze In the name of love Which was never patient And never kind In the name of men Who gripped my arm too tight Who shoved their hands underneath my clothes Who cast me off when I wasn't Close enough to use I look in your eyes and I see love Not lust, or obsession No pedestals or possession I see laughter and compassion And light

A trophy by CamsterTheHamsterXD, literature

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A trophy

I can feel it pulling in my chest I'm so afraid I've become numb When I so deeply want to feel 'I just don't,I just can't' The reality is I'm just not Not yet But I should be, and I could be Anything I want If I could allow myself to touch The parts of my soul that are weeping Crying out in pain from neglect Rotting slowly atrophy a trophy of safety from true emotion true creation truth itself I want to love everything and everyone in my life so deeply and honestly as I love you my muse, my friend To be inspired and unafraid In chaos and at peace

Pensivepoem #? by CamsterTheHamsterXD, literature

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Pensivepoem #?

I misunderstand the phrase 'lighter than air' The very space around me, hangs heavy on my heart He'll never be forever But he's here, he's here and now When he held me, I almost believed I could go back Take the easy road Never to improve or grow, but to fall back to the life I wanted as a child Before I'd seen, heard, and felt that there was anything more Before I'd seen, heard, and felt that I could have it I'll never cease to love anyone I don't even try anymore In a year and a half I'll have outgrown this place A sad realization, a joyous step forward He'll stay behind Whether we part ways sooner or later I don't know For now, I'll subm

Touch by CamsterTheHamsterXD, literature

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Touch

Touch the glass You're on the outside All the activities within seem distorted and confusing So dull to you, yet so vivid to those involved You only want the sparks The ones in their hands, their hearts, their eyes They warm you, and your hands feel so cold when you're alone Touch the glass A figure appears Passing through the wall, coming closer, bearing matches You ask politely, simple sparks But they want so much more They light you on fire Their desire It burns They thirst for your sizzling flesh Your anguish is alien They can't understand how anyone could only want to be warm When things could be so hot It hurts But your hands feel so

Imaginary Lover by CamsterTheHamsterXD, literature

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Imaginary Lover

Love is unhealthy It is a wasting disease I give And give And wait And waste away You suck the life from me in silence I am a whisper to you A secret sin to feed your guilty ego You don't know what you want But sometimes you want me And that would be enough to sustain my pitiful heart If I didn't know better If I didn't wake up I'm done falling My skin is a bruise Dark as the shadows in the closet The one you shut up when loving me is inconvenient My bones are shattered from being dropped They jut out from the blackness, like stars that can't shine anymore Like the lights in my eyes They've gone out We've gone out But no one can know Yo

I Love You by CamsterTheHamsterXD, literature

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I Love You

I don't care if we're young Cause all I want right now is to grow old Watch the seasons pass through our weathered eyes together As we lay the stones and mortar for the castle of our lives We build on a strong foundation Deeper ties than those which hold our cells together in these human shaped blobs And I long for you Long after I know I should stop To wait a while before we drop and roll Laughing down the hills Maybe bones will break But I am not afraid Nor do I care how it would appear to foreign gazes I no longer obsess over time Fear ceases to cripple me with all it's intricacies I only care to be with you Always To hold you tight an

F by CamsterTheHamsterXD, literature

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F

Nobody wants to be lied to I feel you slip farther from me I'm on the edge of your string Dangling by a thread of hope Cut and fall Truth emerges with blazing blades Cut and fall Dreams, near realization, evaporate Cut and fall Mist consumes my mind Cut and fall Why must love be blind Needles pierce my chest with every ragged breath I drag my rotting corpse behind me with a twisted chain of contorted sorrows Every mile downward, heavier, the emptiness whistling past, pulling me close Every blink, darker, the chill of loneliness cutting foresight short On the edge of your fingertips Cut and fall The string lies abandoned Cut and fall It's onc

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A Poem to My DeviantArt Phase by CamsterTheHamsterXD, literature

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A Poem to My DeviantArt Phase

A Pebble by CamsterTheHamsterXD, literature

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A Pebble

Like by CamsterTheHamsterXD, literature

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A trophy by CamsterTheHamsterXD, literature

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A trophy

Pensivepoem #? by CamsterTheHamsterXD, literature

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Pensivepoem #?

Touch by CamsterTheHamsterXD, literature

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Touch

Imaginary Lover by CamsterTheHamsterXD, literature

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I Love You by CamsterTheHamsterXD, literature

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I Love You

F by CamsterTheHamsterXD, literature

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F

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A Second by monkeysforthefuture, literature

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A Second

One day While sitting on the bus counting seconds on my fingers I realized something Our perception of time changes with the speed of our minds But its always the same measurement to some a second seems to drag by while to others it is but a moment Its interesting And I can't help but think how it changes our lives. Something we can never see or prove But it controls the beat we walk to I can't help but wonder what it does to us Well, Like a skinny boy has an easier time rising from his bed than the fat man I think some minds have an easier time biding aside from things and waiting in line I think some minds find that rough and each se

Dragonfall by monkeysforthefuture, literature

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Dragonfall

People often write about love or their feelings. people write about injustice, corruption, social etiquette and its meaning They write of overcoming struggle or falling beneath it They place their values on a scale of words that clearly measures their greatest treasures against the ears of those who heard well a single scale sits upon my forehead The color of brass; I believed it to be brazenly displaying. A depth of meaning, a decision seeming but much more akin to a balancing act. A scale. Sits right where my tail should be Two more where I would have wings. I'm crouched here now. These scales weigh heavily on me Like nails holding b

summers night by monkeysforthefuture, literature

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summers night

Imagine if you will, a still, and chill, summers night not so chill as winter but still bitter in its own right Now i might excite you to say that monsters roam it but they are just the homeless Gruff men roughly grumbling under their breath about how it is So Unfair that despair should only be lain on those who suffer that the only men who need to cry are those with tears already taped o-ver their eyes and pictures of scars tattooed on their hearts That the only ones who need feel a summer nights chill are those who sleep in filth every night one might begin tosee a problem and while that thought may never be carried to conversation we try

The Grass Isn't Greener by CriesOfTheCarrots, literature

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The Grass Isn't Greener

They complain about being invisible How lack of attention leaves them miserable But they don’t see how lucky they are They’re better off alone by far With peace and quiet to collect their thoughts Still contemplation to untie the knots I so tire of everyone in my business Knowing I’d rather keep my distance Arms’ length away and mine are long I’ve built this wall so high and strong I’m comfortable in here all by myself Neatly organizing thoughts upon this shelf But then they come and tear it down I panic as they place this crown Upon my head of frizzy hair More and more invade my lair Can’t th

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Artist // Student // Varied

Aug 30
United States
Deviant for 13 years
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"Hmm...I am Camster the Hamster. >: D I will have world domination...or a slice of cheeseburger pizza. I'm pretty much awesome. Then again pretty much just a huge dork. xD

Current Residence: ~Boredom City California~

Favourite style of art: Your Mom?

Personal Quote: "Bitches don't know about my swag. .3." "

-Camster circa...2010-2012?

Any way, I'm a totally cool ADULT now and I'm TRYING MY BEST.

Favourite Visual Artist

Nick Blinko/Alphonse Mucha/ Gustav Klimt

Favourite Movies

Yellow Submarine, Ghibli things, Romantics Anonymous, Laika things

Favourite TV Shows

Whichever reality TV has the WORST and RUDEST people, Most cartoons

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists